very proud of ya
22 songs
released june 19, 1996 on nitro records

this is their second full length, and first with nitro. on the cd you can rewind past the first track to hear "no dave party" which is an instrumental. it features davey's dad on lead guitar (thanks joe nouford). this wasn't always meant to be an instrumental, however. originally they intended to have everyone, but davey, sing. that never happened because they ran out of studio time. another three tracks were never finshed due to time running out. these exist only in demo form and were never formally released. the vinyl version has the bonus tracks :
"who said you could touch me? " "rolling balls" and "love is a many splendored thing"

HE WHO LAUGHS LAST
FILE 13
WAKE UP CALL
CULT STATUS
PERFECT FIT
ADVANCES IN MODERN TECHNOLOGY
THEORY OF REVOLUTION
THIS SECRET NINJA
SOAP BOX DERBY
ASPIRIN FREE
FISHBOWL
CHARLES ATLAS
CROP TUB
CONSULT MY LOVER
TAKE THE TEST
TWO OF A KIND
SHATTY FATMAS
YURF RENDENMEIN
CRUISE CONTROL
MODERN EPIC
WHO SAID YOU COULD TOUCH ME?
ROLLING BALLS
LOVE IS A MANY SPLENDORED THING

HE WHO LAUGHS LAST

No trust
Can be given freely
Its' a valuable commodity
But obviously this is something you've never learned
Faith is something that you put in friends
And had I excess morals to lend
I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned.

We've got a problem?
First of all there is no "we"
I'm detached from you completely
I've got a problem
You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me

No bond
Can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship
But one thing that never comes between us is
Honesty
When you have something to say
You always seem to find a way
To avoid the truth or instead, avoid me
Straight up
Is how you'll see me stand
But it is never in your plans
To be straight forward, so instead, you use
Deceit
Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking from the start
I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat

No trust!

FILE 13

I sleep until there is no light
I'm wide awake all through the night
Dinner may suck but I'll take a bite
I do whatever I can
My muscles stiffen through the day
Discomfort never goes away
I feel like a garbage can

Throw me away
I've got no use
Throw me away
I'm nothing to lose
Throw me away
I feel like shit
I am useless

I know I know nothing at all
I'd take stand, but I know I'd fall
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster
Girls laugh and pass me on the street
I spook out everyone I meet
I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master.

I never seem to feel well
I always seem to look like hell
It seems like everyone can tell My mind is going numb
My mom thinks I wear women's clothes
I get dogged on at all the shows
It seems that everybody knows I look like a fucking bum

WAKE UP CALL

If I had my way I'd wish them all away
But I can't find the magic inside of me
I'll give my best, 'cause I can give no more
But your problems aren't solved so easily

I'm not
Someone that you should run to
I've been
Often, as broken as you
More often than you'd like me to

If I could heal all the pain that you feel
I'd gladly cure all that ails you inside
Unfortunately, I have no degree
And I can not anesthetize

I wish that I could help you
I can't even help myself
It seems you need a saving grace and a savior's something I'm not

CULT STATUS

I'll turn you on and switch you right off
I'll make sure you like what you see
Forget all that you once believed
Now you will believe in me
Do you believe you make the choice
Decide what you hold most dear?
In all opinions that you voice, it's my voice that they all hear

I'll take
Your ideas and your values
I'll make
You turn them all around
I'll break your individuality
I'll take you down

I'll seal shut your open eyes
I'll give you a taste on the bland
Intoxicate you, take me in
You'll never feel the touch of my hand

I'll turn you on and switch you right off
I'll soothe your troubled mind
You'll never have to think again
It's just a matter of lost time

PERFECT FIT

What was it I was thinking
Or was I even thinking at all?
When I think of what I thought back then
Then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled
That I gave up all I was so easily

Living your life is not for me
I won't be sedated
I won't be sedated!
Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more
I won't be sedated
Stability is overrated
Give me the disorder I adore

I can't be a part
Be a part
I can't be a part
I can't be a part
Be a part of your modern world
I've gotta be apart
Be apart
I've gotta be apart
I've gotta be apart
I can't grasp the values that you hold

What was it you were thinking
Or were you even thinking at all?
When I think of what you thought of me
I take offense; and I'm appalled
That you could discount all I love so easily
Living your life is not for me

ADVANCES IN MODERN TECHNOLOGY

Every night I walk the streets
Awake while everyone else sleeps
I'm giving unease to anyone I meet
My generosity can never runout
Because I give a gift from what's within myself

No hope at all
Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left
I can't recall
I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best

Everyone avoids my stare
And no one cares to ever dare
To look into the eyes
Of what they most fear

And they're taught to fear
To fear no evil
And they know no fear
They've learned to love themselves

Forever unlucky Cause I'll own tomorrow
Forever unwanted
Outcast today
I'm not mislead
I've got no one to follow
Everywhere to go
No place to stay

THEORY OF REVOLUTION

Don't want to think about it
But I see it every day
Corrupted innocence just doesn't seem to fade away
Spoiled so young
You know it's bound to last
But when you're living in the city
You've gotta grow up fast

And it makes me sick
God, it makes me sick

Don't want to think about it
But I see it every day
If you want to buy affluence
Your soul you'll have to pay
Wasting away
The prime of your life
But it's been done that way for years
So you know it must be all right

Don't wanna think about it
But I see it every day
With every sip and every shot
Mind and bodies fade away
Friends are all gone
And memories don't last
But when you've fallen off the wagon
You seem to fall so damn fast

THIS SECRET NINJA

Just like cellophane
You try to cling so tight to me
But your attempt's in vain
You've less sincerity than the plastic
Paper in rain
The print appears so bright to me
The words remain
I hold it to the light
I see right through.

So eager to say, "hello"
But you don't know me
You just know what you see
Pay the price to see the show
But you don't own me
Before you knew would you have felt the same?

Just when I'm inspired
You drain the drive right outta me
And even when I'm tired
You push me to perform for you amusement
Just like raging fire
You burn what's left inside of me
And to fulfill your desire, I'd give you light till I burned out

Just when you start to smile
I look into your eyes and see your veiled denial
To express any real emotion
Just wait around a while
You'll lose what you once had for me
I'll be out of style
I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned

SOAP BOX DERBY

I'm not angry
I'm just amused
At your quest for attention through your self abuse
The only response that you get for your pleas
Is sorely less than sympathy
What reason is there to be alive?
When the world is against you
How can you survive?
All your friends are apathetic at best
And your entire life is a total mess
Give it a fuckin' rest

You can't feel me
Feel, I'm scarred so deep
No one could ever need me
Could you please leave me alone?

I'm sorry to hear that your world's sinking fast
And you've lost your stable ground
And I'm sorry to add to your disappointment
But I won't be brought down

I'm not angry
I'm just amused
At all the dramatics you love to use
But one thing I have noticed that is strange to me
Is that you're happy unless your unhappy
You're not content until you're brought down
And you're always so alone because you can't be found
You're soul is black
And you're filled with hate
How much more can you possible take?
Give me a fuckin' break

ASPIRIN FREE

There's no hope of helping us
We've only just begun
We're youth eternal
Nothing more to become
A thousand lights are burning from both ends

We're proud of reputations we all own
Together forever
Rejected but never alone
Together forever

I'd purify the world with one primal scream
But no one would listen
Keep dark secrets to myself
Because no one else will talk to me

It's hard for me to comprehend
They couldn't understand all the thoughts going through our heads
With a smile they tore us up
Now look what we've become
Finally we are numb

No need to
No need to feel
I've got a nothingness
And that's all that's real
No need to
Cut the numbness inside
No need to
No need to hear
What you've got to say means nothing at all
I've got no distance left to fall

FISHBOWL

I'm here today
Just like every yesterday
Heavy heat
And sheets stick to my skin
Can't get away from nothingness
I try to get up
But I have to give in to the force
That is keeping me down.
I overcome gravity
I look outside
A cat cries out
Trapped upon a window sill
But it's crying's drowned out by my screaming inside

What will it take?
I wonder what it's like exposed outside
Would I be safe?
When will it break
Try to look out
I see reflection
I just want to break

Sirens moan
They're forever crying
Someone's probably dying
The sound sticks inside my head
Talk to myself
I'm company
But who is to say if nothing if said?
Two windows stare back at me
Three stories high nothing is new
I may sit
But someday I'll stand
I'll muster up the will and fire myself through

CHARLES ATLAS

You've seen it all a thousand times
You've heard it all before
You've danced the steps, you wrote the rhymes
So passé, too many times
But you're hollow at the core
Two generations past you by
You think there's nothing left
But look around and you will see
What our world has grown to be
We are the now
Not the past

Can't you even try to see
The strength with which we've built ourselves to be
I know that you will never be
Able to destroy what it's meant to me

You've never seen the likes of us
We are your novelty
A brand new trend with mass appeal
Don't like the truth
Don't like what's real
You're jumping into something you'll never understand

You think that it's a passing phase
It's our entire life
You revel in rebellious ways
Rebellion that the media made
When you change your channel
We'll smash your T.V.

CROP TUB

You say you want to be friends
Start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then
Things were never how you wanted
I couldn't think of you that way
Now, if you take one step closer
I will take two steps away
Maybe you need affection
I'd like to help you but
I can't stand when you're around

Fuck you very much

Maybe you need to talk
But you betrayed my trust
Friends was not good enough?

Fuck You Very Much

You can always claim you're straightedge
Go ahead and dye your hair
You won't get more attention from me
Cause I will never fucking care
I try to remain secret
Shooting away and hiding out
But you always track me down
Open your eyes and figure it out
I'm not trying again
I'm sick of seeing you
Don't wanna be your friend
I wish you'd go away

CONSULT MY LOVER

You've got something to say
Or so you say to me
Then you receive a blank stare
You've got something to say
Of importance and
Gosh, that's really good to hear

I'm proud of you
So proud of you
I'm proud of you
I'm very proud of you

You've got something S.P.
Something to show to me
Well, I have seen it before
I can't compete
I can't impress you
I guess I'll show you the door

TAKE THE TEST

When it comes the time
That you have recognized your line and you realize the path
That you will travel through your life
Be sure that what you want is exactly what you're trying to get
Or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that...

Before you know
The haze makes you slow
Ignore your future
Forget your past
Before you know, cars start to crash

There are so many choices
The opportunities abound
Just to be sure to keep things straight
And be sure to stand your ground
Let nothing shade your vision
Even fight to keep it clear
Let no one change what's right for you
For when you start to veer

Cars start to crash

TWO OF A KIND

Hangin' out and lingerin' around
Cause you know where I'll be found
And I don't know how you do it
This obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit
My solidarity now only comes in pairs

I'd like to see you
Before you see me
I'd like to see you
I'd like to see you leave

Showered by torrential praise
Why it is I can't explain
Attempts to leave yield no avail
For me I don't know what's in store
All I want is nothing more
I don't deserve what I get
I have nothing to return

SHATTY FATMAS

Don't care to hear what you heard
I won't believe a single word
Don't care to hear what you say
I won't believe it anyway
You relay fiction, facts you avoid
You're just like a fucking tabloid
You can never seem to get your information straight

Tell me something I don't know
Your information's fucking faux
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow

Don't want to know what you know
I just want you to fucking go
Don't want to know what you believe
I just wish that you would leave
You try to cajz everyday
I wish that you would get away
You can never seem to get your information straight

When you try to hang around
I'd really like to push you down
When you try to understand
I don't really think that you can

YURF RENDENMEIN

You keep on sayin' that you want to know me
But you never show me your true self
How can you ever expect someone else to know you
When all you're going to do is just pretend that you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me
That you're really different, but your just the same.
If you're really mindless then there is no way that I can win
Maybe you're just one of them
Or maybe it's just a game

You lie to yourself
And remain alone.

I'm not exactly sure of your motivation
I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do
All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive
And you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance
Maybe you're striving for something more
If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us?
You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score

CRUISE CONTROL

I will never want to date you
While I can learn to hate you
If you somehow learn to love me
Well, that's just my luck
I would never care if you only wanted my friendship
But somehow you're disappointed that I'm not a slut

I don't want to fuck you
So fuck you

I my mind there is no doubt that
You've been in and out
Of many different backseats
Many times before
I can always see your defeat
When I won't leave the front seat
And it seems your disappointed that I'm not a whore

MODERN EPIC

Yeah I can see it coming
I've seen it all before
I've seen it once or twice
And now I hear it call to board
This train is moving fast
But how long is it gonna last
I guess that we'll find out
As we'll go in through the out door

Don't ever let go

Is this the start?
Is this the end?
New faces ask
"What's happening?"
I bite my tongue and hold my breath
And tell them, "the same old thing"
I don't know what's going on but
I don't wanna do it wrong
Don't wanna contradict myself with all the words I sing

ONLY ON VINYL

WHO SAID YOU COULD TOUCH ME?

You don't know I am so
You can not get close to me
And I don't know who you are
So just leave me alone
I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me
And I know you can't believe your fake compassion I don't need

Get away from me
You're standing too close
Keep your hands off of me
Keep away from me, Just leave me alone
Who said you could touch me anyway?

Don't try to rub my shoulders
And don't try to hold my hand
Don't try to give me a fucking hug
You crawl on me as if I were you very best of friends
I don't even know your name

ROLLING BALLS

Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream To be a member of the local bowling team But I'm not very good The guys won't accept me I guess I'll try the girls team and lose a part of my anatomy Then balls will roll I think I want to be Balls will roll I think it's time It's time for me to be a girl It's a very big decision
It's going to change my life
I'll have to make all new friends
I 'm gonna lose my wife
But that's okay with me
There's something in my soul
It doesn't matter who's the better man
It's the man who gets to bowl

I 've made my decision
I'm gonna make the change
There will be rolling balls
I'm gonna play my game
It's gonna be so great
It's gonna be the best
Besides, I've always told myself I look good in a dress

I'm gonna cut'em off
I'll never have to cough

Now I've made my change
And I've fulfilled my dream
I'm now a member of the women's bowling team
I hope I throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score again
My first game is tomorrow
I will go to play and then

LOVE IS A MANY SPLENDORED THING

You think you've got the looks
You think you've got the fashion
You thought you'd have me wanting more, but don't like my reaction
You think you're really something
You're nothing to me now
You thought you'd keep me coming without ever thinking how

I hate you

You think you're really special
You think I think you're best
You think you're really something?
You're no better than the rest
You've got everything you wanted
Don't let yourself be fooled
You thought that you could play the game, but I just changed the rules